Thinking of Shadowly

Missing Shadow has reminded me of how truly impermanent things are.  I got into the habit of loving on the surface, but not growing too attached.  Tayo I couldn't help but love, and then came along Shadow.  Shadow was a bit nervous at the beginning, but he was always kind to me.  My heart hurts and I feel the tears welling up when I allow myself to think about him.  I just miss him.  Part of me is so sad and practical, thinking I'll never see him again. But my creative side knows he's out there, he's in my memory and many others, how can he just stop existing?